Worst 2 days I've ever had...ever...

[BettyA]

I do know one thing for sure... If I have ever judged anyone all these years for wanting to commit suicide to get out of their mental and physical pain.... I really didn't understand and I really did not relate; in spite of going through some REALLY rough times.

I thought I was doing better and felt SO encouraged...then yesterday morning it was like I woke up feeling half dead, horrible feelings and emotions and extreme tiredness... I don't know whether depression of anxiety is 'ahead'... I feel like I'm in a strange nightmare... My Ativan doesn't help... I don't drink, but yesterday bought a 6 oz bottle of Merlot wine, drank 2 oz and that didn't have ANY effect on me but make me more tired.

My family loves me and yet I know they would be ok without me...I am the mom and grandmother... but I worry about who would take good enough care of my wonderful, loving, always there for me, cat whose name is Ervin. He is always right there beside me when I need him the most... I have friends but its not right to always be a downer around them. I am not really considering going through with suicide... but it would be nice to just LEAVE this situation behind...

I feel with love and hurt for all of you going through the same rough times. I couldn't take Prozac or some drug starts with C... made me really sick... but I've read more 'good things' about Sertraline... Maybe my dr would let me try it. I know I do NOT want to keep living like I've been the last 2 days...

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Don't be so silly I know it's very.hard but think of your family and your grandkids you really wouldn't want to harm yourself this thing with depression and anxiety can be really annoying maybe your just hving bad side effects of whatever tabs you take I would advise you to go bk and talk to your doctor and tell him the way you feel may god watch over you and protect you please don't do anything daft take care let me know how you get on

[Aazz]

I know it's hard I am currently going through a tough few days after feeling great for a week I thought it was finally over and then it hit me again it's so discouraging but if we let the set backs beat us we will never get out of this just float through let the feeling be say to yourself ok I feel like shit at the moment and that's ok I don't mind as I know it will get better if you don't fight it it won't bother you as much.

I really do hope you feel better soon why don't you ring a mental health hotline it's free to speak to someone also go back to your doctor and maybe do some counseling to get you through this tough period. Xxx

[sgbmandy]

There you said it your family love you, how would they feel If you did something stupid. We've all thought of the easy way out trust me. But my kids would never forgive. Me. You need to be strong and work through it. Anxiety and panick attacks are awefull to live with but we have too make the most of our life its precious. You will cope and learn to live with it. Your not alone anytime you need reassurance were all here this site is great and its helping me talking to others. Take care my love talk to your lovely family xxx