I have been quiet for a while as I have been in a happy and settled place but BANG it's gone! I have just had an amazing holiday and have never felt so happy, my relationship is improving, as is my positivity but the reality of being home is now beating me! The last two days have felt tough and now I have just had to see my mother (one of the main causes of anxiety), add this to the other factors and I am on self destruct! I feel so down and the intrusive thoughts are so loud. I just think I'm ok and improving but arrraaggghhhh I am not! Panic attacks are back! I am so fed up of this. Had enough, I don't want to do this anymore.