Recently, my boyfriend told me he has plans of going out with his friends to this island where you pretty much go to just to get drunk. i won't be able to go because of family obligations. The thought of him going is making me go insane! The thoughts in my head aren't stopping. "What if he meets someone else?" "What if the alcohol makes him do unfaithful things" "his friends are going to push him to do unfaithful things because they don't care that he's in a relationship" "what if he does something, then he hides it from me and I'm the one that looks stupid for months"... All of these are making me physically sick. He's being such a sweetheart and trying to reassure me that everything is going to be okay. He's going to stay faithful because he's happy with me. The problem is me... I can't stop feeling anxious no matter what he says to me. I don't wanna nag and accuse because I know that I'll push him away. I'm trying to make plans with other people while he's gone but because it's so last minute, everyone else is already busy. It's like I'm waiting for him to say something to get rid of everything I'm feeling but I know that him saying "okay I'm not going and I'll just stay home" is the only way to make me feel better. Which is NOT fair! At all! I just wanna stop feeling like this. I feel so pathetic that I'm this jealous!