I wrote before about holiday dread, and it has gotten a lot worse... I don't think I can sit on a plane for three hours, the idea of being trapped terrifies me. You can't just get off when you feel anxious, what if something happens?! Also eating has become a big problem, it seems that everything I eat I feel that I am allergic to even if I have ate it before. How will I cope on holiday! My mum said that it would probably benefit everyone if I didn't go, and I kind of think she is right. But I don't want to give up that easy, how am I going to go live by myself or go to university if I keep avoiding my fears. Though I don't even know what I am scared of anymore, it seems to be everything. I don't even know anymore.