Pain hits me like a full speed train

[Carri477]

My anxiety was triggered last year due to mums shock cancer diagnosis after going for mri nerve damage to back , I was going through itregular menstrual and got told I was being sent for hysteroscopy/ biopsy/ mirena and at some point that week I took the worst moment of my life .

I literally can't explain it I thought I was dying - thought I was either having a heart attack, stroke or had a brain tumour . I phone nhs 24 they had no appt until 11 iys was 9 and I took my self to bed waking up panicking this is it I wrote a note to my husband , daughter & son and left it on my dressing table as I truly believed I was going to die.

To be told it was a panic attack shocked me I had never had one and my life had changed so quickly since that . My dr put me on propanol and citalopram for 4 months I got off them as quick as I could as I hated them they made it worse.

My anxiety is health anxiety as during mums treatment for cancer we were both diagnosed with brca2 and every pain and physical symptom I think it's cancer.

The positive Thing isu his and and kids tHey keep me going and I fight it on a daily basis. I havea degree of knowledge and understanding of my disorder but its still ao difficult at times to keep under control and also to process it.

I'm so glad I found this site as a support because it's hard for people to understand unless you go through it and I think they think I'm

Going crazy.every few weeks the pains / symptoms change and o get scared . A so type this I can't stop crying my husband has walked in and had to make me lie down and calm down - I hate anxiety so much

[Carri477]

Thanks my most common one is weakness left side - shoulder and arm . Also head ache also left side it scares me as I keep thinking brain tumour

[Carri477]

It's awfil

And then because you think of it the vicious circle starts and its constant pain and constant worry . I feel

Like have ages in the last year , I'm

Like the fun police , I feel like I can't remember sometimes how to have fun and laugh that's what hurts most like its stripping ME of my personality

[faithful_j]

Hi I just recently got anxiety a couple months ago. I wasn't properly diagnosed by a Doc yet but I'M 99% sure that it's anxiety because of the symptoms I have. I know exactly what u guys r going through, I'M glad I found this site because it lets me know that I'M not alone. I had no Idea what ppl with anxiety went through until now! I'M always thinking I'M having a heart attack, or tumor or something is wrong or I'M gonna die. Anxiety turned me n2 a hypochondriac smh. I cry everyday I'M tired of this feeling!

[Carri477 in reply to faithful_j]

Hi faithful

Like you this site is new to me and a little Ray of light . I'm sorry to hear your are going through this and fully empathise with you .

I think I struggle most when I'm having a good day like yesterday I had my three nephews plusy two went to soft play for couple hours then my bro with his kids and my bro in law went a huge 2 and half hour walk up an estate fresh air and fun then when everyone went home and it was peaceful I could relax and Boom like a train it came and consumed me for over an hour . Negative thoughts pains , tears and panic my amazing hubby took me aside and made me go for a lie down which upset ME more as I wanted toe downstairs with them x

[Grandadgrump1]

I get that strange arm feeling too? As soon as I feel anxious its my arm that starts and its a feeling I can't describe its so strange isnt it xx

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Hi Carrie

No wonder you are suffering with anxiety you are going through such a tough time.

Sending you a hug xx

[Carri477]

I know I wish it were that easy . At the moment I keep getting a very dry nose and throat is awful , the. Due to my posture and tension my neck , shoulder and head hurt and I get I. Such a state I have convinced myself it's a brain tumour . Wish I could just get a cy scan head to toe and move on . My anxiety is health based - cancer & death are my triggers I'm terrified x

[Carri477]

I think so even in this day and there is still such a stigma people don't talk about . They avoid rather than try and get informed .

I talk about because I would hate to think how I would be if I didn't talk about it

[Carri477]

It is exactly that what came first the chicken or the egg . I clean the surgery part time that I am patient off . So I feel sometimes like I can't go to the dr as I feel they will think here we go again what is it now ?

Mine was a combination of always locking things away d not deing emotionally with the. And when my father in law died suddenly , two years later still grieving my my

Got. Cancer diagnosis and I got BRCA diagnosis I fell apart properly short circuited and I have always been strong and now I feel like half the person some days i don't even recognise myself .

i can't remember why I have walked I to a room , my short term memory is awful , my concentration span is bad at times and I can't believe how tired I feel some

Days but I Dont give in.