I suffer from anxiety & low mood due to historical family issues. I've had counselling which helped understand why I feel the way I do & equip me with the tools to make a change.
I want to change & feel better but I need to really focus on my behaviour/thoughts which takes a lot of energy. I've made small steps & achievements which I feel good about that.
Working part time kept me going at my really low times & helped distract me from how I was feeling.
My problem at the moment is work has got so stressful. My boss is expecting 5 days work in 3 & I just can keep going. My attempts to work on feeling better are being sidelined because I'm just too mentally exhausted with work. I've stayed in bed all day today & am supposed to be meeting friends this evening. I just dont feel like putting on a happy face when I feel so rotten. (Also, I feel anxious in social situations).
I know I need to deal with the root of the problem at work, but I need to build myself up to it. I want to get away from the stress for a while. My worry is that it'll make things worse, because I'll have more time to pity myself & it'll be difficult to go back. Has anyone else felt the same? I'm afraid to take time out incase I can't pick myself up again but if I keep going I don't have the energy to tackle my stress/anxieties & make the change I need.