Felt fine all day now that's night time I'm experiencing racing heart and general tired feeling. I know that I should just do something to distract myself but I can't stop feeling too frightened to move. My stomach has constant butterflies but I feel hungry so I know I'm not ill but too nervous to eat. I just want to enjoy my life again. There were so many years where I didn't feel like this and I hate that I feel this way now. I have a three year old whom I should be playing with and forgetting all of this nonsense but I cant. I'm starting to really hate my job and feeling anxious knowing I have to be there tomorrow morning. I feel scared and lost when all I want is to feel happy.