This is awful but manageable, I am manic depressive, but also manage my illness myself.
I worry about everything, going away abroad freaks me out, getting to appointments on time, social occasions etc.
After watching my parents die, Mum from a severe stroke and Dad a year later from lung cancer I knew I could cope with anything.
My parents never helped me much, they were too busy working, but they gave me what they could and I am strong and independent thanks to them.
Inner strength is a must, keep focused and be strong.