My name is Sabrina, im 17 years old and Ive been suffering from depression for about 4 years, Ive been on and off medication about 3 times, and i just started Lexapro because of my anxiety. Its been crippling and there have been days when I simply cant get out of bed and I stay in my pajamas and sometimes wont even shower. My thoughts have been mainly circling well-being, or the lack thereof, of myself and anyone I love. I constantly worry about my anxiety, which gives me anxiety, and sometimes i question existence and my own sanity a bit. I know these are only intrusive thoughts but they bring me anxiety. Ive also lost complete appetite and can barely bring myself to eat even my favorite foods. Ive switched to drinking a shake called Almased, and I started on vitamins a few days ago. I havent been seeing my therapist due to insurance issues and paying for a session can be really expensive. Sorry for such a long question but i figured it would be best to mention everything at first so yeah, any suggestions or help would be amazing, and please only helpful replies.