So in 2011 i was diagnosed with anxiety which then triggered depression in later life. I had every symptom imaginable, it started with retching and always gagging on nothing, and as i also have emetophobia (fear of vomit) this panicked me a HUGE amount. I got so bad that i stopped going out in public, i couldn't leave my drive way without having a full on panic attack. I had developed a fear of going outside, fear of eating, fear of everything! I noticed my mood changed dramatically and i was so horrible to people around me, without really meaning to be!
It was because of a result of severe bullying at school, i was still having to attend school at the time and it was just impossible for me to do so. I ended up being just over 6 stone and at this point needed help.
I went to hospital and had CBT and sessions with a psychiatrist. He gave me a food diary, and goals to try and complete. We started small, things like going to a friends house. This was even difficult for me at that point, i couldn't go anywhere out of fear! I would feel sick, faint, dizzy, short of breath, increased heart rate, i couldn't do anything!
I got very depressed at how drastic my life had become. I then got up one day and thought, enough is enough, i started small and did things like visit friends, and went to a tiny pub one evening. It was so hard! and i hated it, but i kept at it.
I took a gap year, there was no way i was ready for uni. In this gap year, i set myself more and more goals, i went out, i said yes to things, i would panic everytime but i noticed the more i did it, the easier it became. I got my first job, i went on a make-up course, i took myself to london for work experience, i visited relatives. Im now at university, i started ballet again, i won my competition and to top it all off? I just came back from taking myself to CANADA. I live in the UK, and i got myself on a plane, and back, and stayed away for 10 days to visit my boyfriend out there. I have come such a long way, and to anyone out there struggling i would love for you to reply, i want to help you! I'm open for any questions to be asked, this is such an overlooked condition that needs more attention brought to it. Respond to my message with any worries or queries and i would love to get back to you! I am an anxiety fighter, i still get panic attacks but now im actually living the life i wanted to live. Please feel free to send me a message or reply to this post!
(It would make my day if you could check out my personal fashion blog, a place i like to go to post to get away from every day life. tutufancy.blogspot.co.uk i haven't posted for a while but sure will soon! Do you think i should post an anxiety story?