Well today i have had quite a bad day. I was woken up by my mum at 10 declaring she was going out with my dad and then my sister declared she was going out. Instantly from that moment i felt the panic set in but i refused to let it get to me, i lay there for 5 mins and i calmed down. I then went downstairs had breakfast and whatnot whilst my sister was still in. But then my endometriosis pain set in and i started to get shaky and dizzy again at one point i found myself crying in the kitchen because i didnt want to be alone. My mind then settled a bit when my sister told me if i really need her to come home just give her a call (this is highly unusual for my family to be nice and somewhat understanding) i managed about an hour. Then BOOM it all came crashing down, out of the middle of nowhere i felt my hands start to vigorously shake, my heart pounding out my chest at 100000000bpm, getting dizzy. My juice i latch myself onto wasnt helping, i got a yoghurt that didnt help. I then asked my boyfriend if i could phone as he has an amazing ability to calm me down and persuade me its ok i will be ok nothing is going to happen. Then the panic set in even more, and i was stood there like who do i phone first do i phone my sister and demand she gets home? do i phone my boyfriend first and see if i calm. I then freak out so bad i grabbed the keys and ran out my front door like some crazy lady considering knocking down my neighbours door for help. Then my boyfriend was phoning me so i went indoors sat down and talked to him, it took atleast 15 mins to get me relatively calm.
But im still quite terrified about the whole ordeal.