Hi Everyone..Don't guess I am the only one whose anxiety goes off the scale when this month hits the calender! For me it is awful..I lost each member of my family to cancer...each loved one leaving in December (my beloved patents one week before Christmas and on Boxing Day) and now I am ill and awaiting test results...the waiting for something to happen in the NHS is unreal...even an urgent referral for me is over a week wait and for me feels like a year! I already can barely cope with anxiety and stress and this feels like torture. Have no one else to talk to so that is why I am writing here...just to offload a bit whilst a panic attack abates a bit...they come in waves day and night and I feel heartily sorry for all of us who suffer these horrors! Unless a person has experienced what it actually feels like they can't imagine how next to impossible it is to sit in crowded, hot waiting rooms in hospitals waiting our turn to see specialists, who usually run hours late ..or how dire it is to be alone with a zillion worrying thoughts at nighttime. All I want to do is flee for my life...which only compounds the length of the attack! I feel sorry for us all .