Hope everyone is managing here i have not posted for awhile but always remember the site that help me when i was at my lowest ebb, which i am truly grateful for. Certain people were always encouraging and giving positive vibes these people i thank sincerely.
I have been dancing with demons on and off and have had some good results with the anxiety but sometimes due to the panic attacks etc i find myself in some dark places and everything comes flooding back.
I literally refuse to have my life ruined by thoughts that come flooding into my head as i want to be able to lead a normal life. Meaning invited out go instead of worrying and pondering. Get on the bus without worrying how i am going to feel and will i make it to my destination. Sit in a restaurant and enjoy a meal without feeling uncomfortable and wanting to escape.
I tell myself over and over again i refuse to go back where i was 3 months ago and want to enjoy my children and grandchildren.
Had some stressful time with a new house i was purchasing the vendor decided to not sell at the last minute i am surrounded by boxes and you can well imagine the mess is horrendous. But hey ho i have taken this all in my stride which i was surprised about. Now buying another property fingers crossed this goes through.
But my motto is every disappointment is a Blessing.
Hope to catch up soon take care
Love Seyi xxx