I doubt anyone will be up but I feel the need just to vent a little anyway just to get off my mind how I feel,
Went to sleep relly quickly last night think as I haven't slept so well the last few weeks but woke up just after 3 and haven't been able to get back to sleep.
The pain in the left side of my chest is so sore and it's scaring the bejesus out of me, everytime I close my eyes to go back to sleep I felt like my heart stops and it makes me jump awake. So I'm lying here in bed terrified to move
I thought I was doing much better so have tried to avoid the site to see if it would make me even better but I realise now how much I rely on it and how helpful you guys have been...I think that's what made me start to feel better in the first place.
I guess I just feel really alone but awake, scared in the middle if the night with no one to talk to.
Writing this has comforted me just a little.