sometimes we don't appreciate what we have until it's gone.

I haven't posted in a while as had a very good week, last week. I think what has triggered my anxiety this week is staying in all weekend, mostly due to tiredness (have been feeling very tired recently :/ ) and of course when i'm home alone my mind goes in to overload, and i have the saddest thoughts about myself and feel like i am getting back to square one.

I really want to beat this and feel the way i used to- (had suffered with panic attacks when i was younger but not for a long time after that). most of my anxiety comes from wishing things were the way they used to be, i suppose i have been living in the past alot-which i know isn't healthy. and just feel really alone right now- to the point that my anxiety is making me feel like i am losing who i am.

i just keep forcing myself to carry on with everyday life- along with wishing i had my dad here to talk to.

- lula92 x

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Hi lula

Sorry you are not feeling so good & have been having these sad thoughts

I no what you mean about living in the past , I try not to look behind & focus on the now & if I dare the future , I no its not easy , but we cant go back , but we can move forward & have a good life

I do understand about you wishing your Dad was still here so you could talk to him , I feel exactly the same way about wishing my Mum was still here , but I believe they are still with us , looking down & saying come on you can do this & I no thats what your Dad will be saying , so keep moving forward , little steps , knowing thats what he wants for his daughter

Mean while you always will have us to talk to , I no its not the same , but we do care & we understand

Love

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xxx

[thomson1898]

Hello Lula

I know how you feel. After a very difficult 2 years I often find myself wondering how I got to this point, where did it all go wrong, why can't I be like I used to be?

It's difficult & I can understand your wish to have your dad to talk to. My parents are still here but now & again I sit down & have a chat to my nana, (she died 6 years ago). I do mean I speak out loud to her, tell her what I'm thinking, ask her advice etc. Maybe I'm crazy but it makes me feel better . I can tell her things I wouldn't want to burden my parents with.

Other than that I try to keep myself busy when feeling like this, maybe start a new project in the house or garden. Difficult when tired I know but gives some sort of purpose I find.

Hope you are feeling more like yourself soon

x