Feeling sorry for myself

Got myself very wound up about going to pick up my daughters art stuff from school. I just cannot do it, I've put myself under pressure to go so much so I've rung school to ask when they shut tomorrow and explained that I've got agoraphobia and the receptionist was so kind it's made me cry. I feel so useless.

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Morning Winter

I am on sons laptop here , I have done a post , I cant see posts on mine

I suffer the same as you getting out & I feel for you

Mine crept up on me about 10 years ago ,I was ill when I was out & it was so traumatic , without me realising , I slowly started finding ways of getting round not going out , till now I am stuck !

I am waiting for help & I do go out now & again , it is now & again & its very traumatic when I do

I am a bit spoilt , my hubby does all the going out & I am really good at doing everything on line

Now this is good in one way , but maybe if hubby wasn't so good , I don't no if that would force me to go out , or I could imagine I would be sat crying like you

Don't feel bad , this is an illness , any thing else you would be kind to yourself , you have to be kind with this to & don't give yourself a bad time

Only advise I would give is , ok if school & stuff is to much to face , try everyday just to keep walking down the street maybe , because the more we stop in & don't leave the house , the worse it gets , I no its not easy , but 10 years ago I wish someone had told me to do that

It doesn't have to be far , just a few yards will do

Please though you are not on your own & you must not feel bad

Love

whywhy

xxx

[Kaz12345 in reply to Hidden]

hi Winter, don't beat yourself up, we all do it I know, but it doesn't help. We all need to give ourselves a bit of slack! I'd agree with Why why tho; I don't have agoraphobia but have in the past stopped myself doing things, telling myself, I may not feel well, I feel a bit down so won't be good company, etc, so it's so easy to limit ourselves when we feel so bad. if you can take it slowly, as Whywhy says, just a little at a time if you can, a walk to the end of the road, and you will feel a sense of achievement Im sure.

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Hi Kaz, thanks ive just taken the dog out round the block. My biggest problem is that I'm really hard on myself and I also feel guilty that I have let people down. I had my first counselling session on Monday and he says we are going to work on self esteem and self confidence.

Xxxxxx

[Kaz12345 in reply to Hidden]

Well done! Im a bit like that, very hard on myself and don't want to be a drain on anyone and very guilty if I am not doing everything I feel 'I should'. I've sent you a message.