Spoke too soon :'-(

Well it seems i'm not 'cured' or one of the successful ones that beat this for good.

There i was dishing out my advice and words of wisdom to other people and BAM a panic attack struck for absolutely no reason what so ever yesterday afternoon.

I was standing in my lounge, ironing, watching recorded episodes of Superscrimpers when i felt my heart skip a beat, than everything went hot and before i knew it i was on all fours on the floor falling down that big black hole with no air vents. I was a mess!

Anyway, we all know how it goes (i dont want to start anyone off) and now, because i thought i was getting better, it really has set me back big tme. I no longer feel 'safe' driving or even walking about.

It has now occured to me i might not get better, i might just get worse and worse untill...what? What is at the end?

What is the ultimate part at the end?

If i get worse...what is worse?

Is that where you get locked in the secure hospitals?

Okay now i just sound cranky.

Got to end this blog now as my head is being messed with again :-(

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  • Sorry to hear that :-( ive been fine and even spent my second nite since last yr on my own. I hate being on my own with this anxiety. Then today i felt abit wiered and thought i feel this way before anxiety comes. Sitting here now and its coming again and my OH wont be back till 8. Its horrible, u can have so many days or even wks feeling fine then bang out the blue its back with u. The bad days do set us back, but we will get there. The anxiety causes us to think will i have be me and not have this again? Yes we will get there and one day we wont feel anxious the way we do, and so there for we wont think about it. The bad r part of our recovery xxx

  • Sorry to hear that :-( ive been fine and even spent my second nite since last yr on my own. I hate being on my own with this anxiety. Then today i felt abit wiered and thought i feel this way before anxiety comes. Sitting here now and its coming again and my OH wont be back till 8. Its horrible, u can have so many days or even wks feeling fine then bang out the blue its back with u. The bad days do set us back, but we will get there. The anxiety causes us to think will i have be me and not have this again? Yes we will get there and one day we wont feel anxious the way we do, and so there for we wont think about it. The bad r part of our recovery xxx

  • Hi karen,

    Just because you have suddenly had a big blaster, doesn't mean all your good work is for nothing. Settle down, cosy up, and be gentle and kind to yourself, and carry on with the practice.

    I think "cured" is not a word used for anxiety, we can be "free" of it only when we dont fear it anymore, and even then we can get the occassional blaster, and in those times, we just do the same old practice, Face accept float and let time pass.

    Dont allow this blaster, to gain any importance, its just one panic, treat it the same as the others, its nothing special, just adrenaline, it will pass, hang onto the important part of you, the well part.

    Wishing you well

    Bxxx

  • Hi Karen

    So sorry you have had a setback because that is all this is. Try and focus on the good days and i am sure they out weigh the bad days.

    Panic and anxiety is something we have to learn to deal with ride it and then let it go.

    Baylein was right when he said cured is not a word used for anxiety its learning to deal with it which is difficult.

    Please do not give up take each day as it comes embrace what is happening then let it go.

    I was told by the counsellor that its a circle we have to try and break out of which is very difficult.

    I had one of these days yesterday and felt like throwing in the towel but then i got angry and thought your not runing my life.

    I hope you find some peace and have a better day tomorrow. Keep posting how your doing and like always people are ready to help listen and encourage you.

    Take care

    Hugs

    Love Seyi

  • so sorry you had a setback,this has happened to me several times,it can really make you feel down,I KNOW,but don't dwell on it,my theripist told me to look on this as learning to ride a bicycle,if you fall off,what should you do,?..just get back up on it and try again ,eventually you will master this,this anxiety is an evil begger just waiting to pounce when your least expecting it.jump up again and let it know your not afraid of it,you beat it before,you can do it again...lots of love Mia.xxxxx

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