i guess ive always had quite bad anxiety since primary school. And over years its grown to make my life and social life hell. im now 18 and a student at sixthform. my anxiety limits my skills and i struggle to speak to people that are out of my small friendship circle. I stutter so bad and i struggle to string my sentences together and then i feel nothing like an idiot and end up worrying the whole day about something so small but i always seem to blow it so much out of proportion. It can be that bad that it limits what i can say to my friends and even my whole family and everything little that they may have forgotten about will be burned into my head forever. i remember everything that cause a panic attack when i was younger to such detail that it causes me to feel bad and depressed the rest of the day.
My friends are all going to university in august but i failed the first year so am currently resitting so now ive never felt so low or awkward about leaving the comfort of my home to go to a place where i spend the day alone.
In worse cases when im put under a strain that causes my anxiety to become at its highest i end up either scratching at my skin and cause scars or digging my nails into my skin just to prevent an attack.
This is just me. Another girl suffering the grips of social and general anxiety.