depressed and don't know what to do

[RachelAK1994]

Hi everyone, this is my first forum and I'm just desperately seeking solace somewhere as I am a black sheep and don't really fit in anywhere. I am a mom to 2 wonderful kids, but my husband is deployed until march-april of 2025 and man I am struggling. I don't have a lot of close friends or family as I don't feel comfortable opening up to people very often and have a hard time being vulnerable. I feel like all I do is work 7-9 hour days, go home take care of my kids, and then repeat the next day. Several family members have backed out of flying to come help me emotionally and/or with my kids one by one the past few weeks and my spirit just keeps sinking lower and lower as a result. I feel like no one acknowledges or cares how I am feeling or what I am dealing with, my spouse included if I'm being honest, and I just don't know what to do anymore besides "deal". I also have ADHD, OCD tendencies, and impulse control behaviors which of course add to the pile of my anxiety and depression. I'm hard to connect with, but sometimes I just need an actual friend or someone to talk to and understand me. If anyone ever wants to reach out and talk or has advice to help me, I would love that! Thanks guys

[gajh]

Hello and Welcome. There is a lot of support available here pretty much 24/7. I am glad you have joined us.

[RachelAK1994 in reply to gajh]

I appreciate that I’m glad I joined too. Very grateful for the community

[HaikuYou]

Wanna borrow a hug?

Pug

[RachelAK1994 in reply to HaikuYou]

Thank you for that 🥰 it’s been one of those weeks for sure