Constant negative thoughts.

[Nunk]

I’m really struggling at the moment, I’m waiting to start my IESO sessions. I’m constantly having negative thoughts all the time. I don’t like myself as a person and I’m always looking for approval from other sources. I’m obsessed with what people think of me, I’m always on the look out for any signs. I go out of my way all the time, even when I’m out walking I’ll say hello or good morning just in the hope of a reply. How sad am I, it’s really grinding me down. Any signs of negativity towards me creates large bouts of anxiety and depression. I’m on 150mg Sertraline, been on it for many years. I just want it to stop and to have normal thoughts.

[DontJudge]

Hey, I hope you feel great today. One step at a time, just keep pushing for positivity

[Nunk in reply to DontJudge]

Thank you Oulsen.

[LoveforAll41]

Howdy Nunk, I am so sorry that you are struggling. I am sorry that you have been for a long time... It wears you down. I have felt the best in my life when I could firmly believe that we all have worth no matter what. It is freaking freeing.

I love Dr Burns work and his book "Feeling Great". He talks about our negative thoughts and how we have to have a 100% true thought that we believe to dispel the negative. I think we can all agree humans all have worth just being and existing (maybe we don't feel that way about ourselves). I have a hard time believing it unless I can extend to myself compassion. I am doing the self-compassion workbook by Kristin Neff and another guy, and she has a self compassion book. I recommend them.

When you put positive energy out in a smile or hello, you are doing great things. We can't control others emotions or reactions, they are out of our control. What you are doing is completely appropriate, don't let anything get you down about it. People don't make eye contact anymore🤷‍♂️. Sorry for the ramble. You have worth just existing Nunk, we can't add or detract worth/value, and I find that amazing. It opens life up to have fun. I hope you can have peace and maybe some fun. You are the best Nunk☮️

[Nunk in reply to LoveforAll41]

Thank you so much for your heart warming reply LoveforAll41. I’ll shall certainly take a look at the books you’ve so kindly recommended.