Lost my mind

My mental health feels like it's out of my hands. After having a ptsd event after the use of lsd I realized that I was gay during that trip. Well 7 years since, I am still not settled in a sexual identity and I just don't really think I ever will be able to. I just usually spend my free days drinking and smoking and (trigger warning) wishing bad things to happen to me. Anyway, everyone out there struggling, not having money, being abused physically/mentally I'm sending you any light I have left although I feel like a demon so I may jinx you. I made it through today sober and am going to build off of this but the idea of patience to regain my mental may very well take months or years and that just stresses me out cause I am so miserable and doubtful. Thanks for letting me rant..

[Marysblue]

I hope you could continue on with your sobriety, congrats.

[CatEyez]

Some days, just breathe. It’s okay to not have all the answers today. You are not a demon. *hug*