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I feel like I should open up to you guys.

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Im new to this and i am here because i have depression, Severe anxiety, and i also have a panic disorder. For people who don't know what a Panic Disorder is, it is like an anxiety disorder it is where you have regular or sudden panic attacks or you fear a lot. What i look for here is basically support, laughter and to maybe become a better me.

If you read my recent post i have felt like i'm worthless or i just don't belong anywhere. I just want to feel normal and it doesn't hurt to get out of bed in the morning. The way i feel in the morning is unbearable. But i just go on with my day. Most of my time is spent in my room because its the only place i feel safe.

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coolkitty1934

yeah im like that too i didnt always feel like that but the quarintine messed me up and now i avoid interacting with others.Here are some projects i have made on a website called scratch that are uplifting or funny:

scratch.mit.edu/projects/43...

scratch.mit.edu/projects/43...

scratch.mit.edu/projects/43...

scratch.mit.edu/projects/63...

scratch.mit.edu/projects/64...

scratch.mit.edu/projects/58...

scratch.mit.edu/projects/47...

scratch.mit.edu/projects/46...

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ashishere in reply to coolkitty1934

Yeah when corna hit i started just isolating myself because it impacted me

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coolkitty1934 in reply to coolkitty1934

i am always here if you need me i am very open having felt the same i also have a video you might want to watch would you like me to send link?

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ashishere in reply to coolkitty1934

sure as long as it aint a rickroll.

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coolkitty1934 in reply to ashishere

haha no i swear im not

youtube.com/watch?v=ltun92D...

also from your profile i assume you are a fellow anime lover?if so i would love to talk anything anime if you would like!I know sometimes people get tired of you talking about anime a lot it sucks so im always there to talk about how you feel and if you need to let your inner anime fan free haha

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ashishere in reply to coolkitty1934

Of course anime is my calling!!! :>

It keeps my mind at ease

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coolkitty1934 in reply to ashishere

exactly!see we just get each other lol

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ashishere in reply to coolkitty1934

I messaged u :>

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Hb2003

hello i love anime too welcome i just finished BEM and fruits basket 😄 your not alone

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Flo_Dee_One

I totally empathize with you, Milohere.... I understand the feeling of just wanting to be "normal" and not have to fight myself to have even just a comparably "mediocre" day of just being able to get out of bed. Sometimes, i wish that i could just be like everyone else that i hear in my apartment building, getting up, driving off to jobs they may/may not like... i watch neighbors out of the corner of my window, proceeding about life like they have zero worries while i'm laying around in my dark apartment, trying to force myself to simply shower and brush my teeth. But we're here now, we're not alone, as much as we have convinced ourselves differently. So maybe this is a step in the right direction!

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Kelkel00

I can relate. I feel worthless a lot of the time. And I really hate the feeling…and that my brain/body allow me to feel that way.

Just know you’re not alone, at all!

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ashishere in reply to Kelkel00

Thank you!

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Dalia1116

I can relate. The weekends are the hardest for me. I do not have to be up at a certain time. During the week I have to get up to go to work. I have bills to pay and adult disabled children who depend on me. So once my alarm beeps I am up and get going. I get up early to give myself enough time to get ready and try to exercise for 20 minutes. I do not want to feel I have to rush otherwise it will make me anxious. So for me, it is best to get up early and give myself enough time to get ready and go to work. On the weekends I get up to eat and go back to bed and that is my day until about a quarter to five when I get up to cook. One day at a time

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SayNOtoPanic in reply to Dalia1116

Bless your heart Dalia. Especially caring for your disabled children. Good vibes and hugs to you.

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SayNOtoPanic

Sending you good vibes. I totally understand you. You’re not alone.

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NorwegianWood

Ah, those morning experiences of dread! Best thing is to hang your legs over the side of the bed and keep moving to the shower to start your day.

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RoxyKind

I am here. I have the same. Don't think that getting out of bed is a small thing. Great job! It isn't what you can't do but what you can do. Just wear beautiful pajamas. I get up every day with the thought I can do one thing and it turns into another thing. I never know if I can do more. I just push. Push, girl.

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Trainchaser

Welcome I am new couple of months. Suffer same as you without panic attacks. Been for many years

I can definitely relate. I have been doing well recently due to Wellbutrin. I was on celexa for like 14 years, but Wellbutrin for 2, & it actually gives me some energy l, allowing me to be able to do things i didn't feel like doing before. I noticed in days I don't feel like it if i force myself, it's much easier the following day, almost without thinking. If i take any day off, it gets much harder. I hope that makes sense, but I've been where u are for a long time before, so it's huge progress for me. I'm not working right now, & my anxiety keeps me from even applying for anything, though i know i will have to soon. I know i will be uncomfortable for a short time, but i understand now it will pass, & i will get back to what's normal for me. I relate so much to hearing others & wanting to be like them, but I've finally realized I'm just not like those people, & I'm ok with it (there's nothing i could do do change it, so no use in focusing on it). Things will get better, u just need to change ur focus, & force urself to do what u know is right, until it becomes a habit. I know that's harder than i make it sound, especially if u don't have medication to help like i do, but it's worth trying to find a medication that helps u as much as Wellbutrin helps me, IMO. I just want u to know that it will get better, i know from experience. I will keep u in my prayers & hope life gets better for u ASAP.

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SayNOtoPanic in reply to AnonymousUsername13

Your response to Milohere is on point advice. Thank you cause it spoke to me as well and I appreciate it. 🙏🏻

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ashishere

Thank you so much. Im glad im not alone and that you got out of it so that means i can too.

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Rabih

It's all about how we see ourselves and the world around us, our erroneous interpretation is the culpri. If you change how you understand the world and yourself your feelings will automatically change . It's called CBT or cognitive behaviour therapy . There's lots of stuff about CBT in YouTube, I am sure it will help. Kind regards

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