Hello everyone on here. Hope everyone’s had a good day. I recently posted about the passing of my older brother. His passing has been so incredibly difficult to face. He passed away unexpectedly, and the pain of his passing has been so hard to accept. I’ve been trying to stay on track with my life the best I can, but it’s been a tough battle. When one has severe depression and you lose a loved one, the pain and sorrow are difficult to put into words. I’ve been seeing my therapist and my APN, as usual. My APN increased my anti depressants a bit, but I noticed my anxiety’s been quite elevated, after the increase.
I’ve been retired for a few years now, and I’m blessed to say that I have a beautiful 10 year old daughter that I absolutely adore. I’m trying to do as much as I can to keep my mind busy , so those negative intrusive thoughts don’t overwhelm me. I signed up for an online group therapy class that I believe should help. I’m also not holding back during my therapist sessions. Sometimes I find that during my therapy sessions I hold back, and keep things in. I do this so as not to upset myself or start crying. I know that holding these issues that are locked in my mind is not beneficial to my recovery, but my therapist has been helping with facing these issues. I know I’m gonna have some tough days ahead, but I need to be strong, not just for me, but for my little girl and for those around me that have been very supportive. One thing I think is important is to show those you love in your life how much you truly love them. Trying to live each day to the fullest, and being grateful for what you have is so very important. Even in my darkest days when I’m drowning in that deep hole that wants to take me down, I see a light at the end which is a light of hope and that light gives me strength to move forward and cherish this thing called life. Bless you all. SAMSON
Almost 5 Months Since My Mother Passed Away.
My brother has breathing tics 
Trying my best to finish this semester. I don't know if I can. 
