Getting back where I started

[vanessi]

It’s been so long since the last time I wrote something in here. Lots of things have changed too. But I’m still dealing with anxiety and depression problems. The thing is this time I’m dragging to my misery my partner. It’s been already a year since we moved together. We have a long relationship, he is my best friend and the only person I have because I don’t live in my country.

We’ve been arguing for so long and I think he feels trapped. I think I have abandonment issues and it makes me sad when he doesn’t involve me and his plans when he want to meet his friends. In fact I feel abandoned and left aside. I don’t have any friends and I’m not very open to make friends.

I don’t know what to do, I don’t wanna be like this. In my life I’ve suffered so much and I’ve been carrying with this suffer till today. He says I should get some professional help, he is always on my side but I think I’ve been ruining everything for my insecurities.

I don’t want to keep destroying my life and his. I need an advice. I feel stuck, I don’t know what can I do to change and don’t feel he enjoys spending time more with his friend than with me.

[Hidden]

HelloCant you make some friends of your own?

[vanessi in reply to Hidden]

I’ve tried but it’s very difficult for me because I feel I don’t need any friends.

[Hidden in reply to vanessi]

Maybe having your own friends would give you both a bit of space.. Give you some company when he is with his friends.

[Shnookie]

Hi. It’s Shnookie. Do U have a therapist ? R U on any meds to help U. It’s very brave of U to come on this web site. We R supportive. And U can express your feelings and ideas without judgment. I’m here 4 U

Hugs 🤗 Shnookie

[vanessi in reply to Shnookie]

None of them.

[Shnookie in reply to vanessi]

It might be a good idea to find a therapist and see if there Meds along with cognitive therapy, meditation, etc. to help U. Continue coming on this web site.