So . .... I don't celebrate holidays much. Only making it a point to come together and spend time with "family" ... This year is different. .... No restraints... No restrictions.... No time limits.... Just in the moment.... This is a new feeling for someone such as myself because I'm used to pleasing others and catering to others needs .... Coming to a realization that all of what I go through practically starts in my own head. I can see how the saying " it all starts in your head " takes precedence over all I thought prior ..
Being by yourself can be one of the most rewarding or one of the most scariest things to go through as a human.... it's all a matter of perspective.
No turkey on turkey day....
No crazy Interactions ....
Just peace ... Ironically....
Happy holidays to everyone. Wether you're alone or with abundant family. Don't let your negative thoughts consume you.... If you're alive and well you've made it further than most in the last couple years...be grateful for this in itself. Without you .... Your world doesn't exist .... So be present. ...