Lowered than I thought I could

[Emcd8477]

Hi all

I'm new here I'm also on the bhf page to,I had a heart attack back in July with 2 stents fitted,was told everything was ok and sent on my merry way,I have since then struggled with my feeling a whole lot if them at once but mostly is anger and fear,anger at why it happened and fear of it happening again,I had managed with alot of support from my partner get some sort of normality back and I even went back to my work but just last week I tested positive for covid and its just been like a kick in the teeth and has thrown me back down into the black hole I was in,I'm sitting crying writing this because I'm not sure where to go from here

Thanks for listening 👍

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I'm sorry to hear you had a heart attack back in July and it must have been a right shock for you and yes you do feel angry over why this has happened to you and the covid test was just another smack in the face as well as its always the way how everything goes wrong at the same time isn't it?

Back in 2017 I had blood clots in my lungs and got put on Xarelto 20mg indefinitely and with me it was a shock and I had periods of anger as well and I knew it was irrational but I couldn't help how I felt.

I found how the passing of time has been of help to me.

If you are on the right treatment and take it religiously you will be safer than someone who has never had a heart attack and should be fine but I do understand your frustration having just gone back to work and getting that covid test and it felt like a smack in the face and a step backwards didn't it when that happened if that makes any sense.

[Emcd8477 in reply to Hidden]

Hiya catgirl1976Thanks for your reply

I'm still trying everyday to come to terms with what happened to me but it's hard the anger I have is because the doctors and nurses I spoke to over the phone wouldn't listen to me when I said that something wasn't right with me,and I was right I wouldn't of had to go though what I did if someone had listened to me,I was such an active outgoing person before all this happened now I'm just somebody that doesn't want to do anything and sits and crys all day,even asked my doctor for something to dry up the tears lol,I'm on all the right medication but the though still goes round my head that it could happen again to me and that's what I'm struggling with 👍