This period

[AnIslandOfPeace]

It's so weird.. all of this shit happening; the atmosphere, the media, the environment. Everything seems weird and I don't know how to act. I'm just sitted here, in front of my hostel.. generator sounds, the wind and the red tinted clouds. These last few days have been really bad, really scary and confusing. I feel a very high level of dissociation from the world around me.. I hear things, I see things, I get lost in thoughts and most times, I talk to myself. I've been crying a lot lately too. One would see me and think, "oh, she a hard piece, she doesn't feel shit". Well, I'm actually a real softie and full of emotions, especially this period. I love horror movies but this period, it's really hard to even stay in the dark. You know, I said I feel dissociated from the world around me, yeah? That's true but you know what? This dissociation makes me cognizant of this world around me. It's like a football game.. like I was a player on the pitch and then I left the game to watch from the side. It's really weird, how I'm feeling. I'm also really really really tired and weak. At some point, I thought it has something to do with my astral sign or whatever. My birthday is approaching and maybe the energy is just too much for me. Lol, this is so funny. Thinking my sadness can be attributed to my zodiac sign. Sigh.