dont wanna do anything

[leaningonjesus]

i feel bad. my hubby wants to do something nice for me for mothers day and the weekend, all i wanna do is lay in bed in the dark and cry and not be out or around anyone. i try so hard not to let the depression and anxiety and horrible feelings bleed over if i can help it. but it does all the time and i know hes tired of it. i try to put on a facade if possible but thats exhausting too so i dont. plus i know he wants me to just be me. but "me" is a shell. a person i look in the mirror and dont even recognize anymore. is anyone else there, too? do you suffer from this same battle? especially if you are in a relationship.?

[Isinatra]

I totally understand what you’re going through. I always put a facade on when interacting physically with people. So I limit the number of people. It does take a lot out of me to do so. But I don’t have a family with expectations. I wouldn’t be able to handle that. Have you ever considered to go to a clinic modeled for your type of anxiety and depression? I’ve benefited from them. No pressure, no expectations, questions answered, family education. Think about it....my best to you. ❤️🏄‍♀️

[leaningonjesus in reply to Isinatra]

thankyou all for the relplies... not going to a clinic but meet with my counselor weekly . which is a new thing for me. im glad others understand cause sometimes its so hard to put it all in words. when someone gets it or can relate or has lived it, no words need to be said !😶i appreciate the thoughts and ideas😇

[Isinatra in reply to leaningonjesus]

Ok! Therapist! I see good things happening.❤️🏄‍♀️

[alifran72]

Sweet friend, I am so sorry. Depression can be debilitating. I have been there. One thing I would like to gently suggest is an antidepressant. Therapy was of help to me but the combination of medication and therapy is what saved me. Do you have a good doctor you can make an appointment with? Is there someone you could see tomorrow? I pray you can. Hang in there, friend. Sending a big hug your way right now

[leaningonjesus in reply to alifran72]

thankyou so much i needed that as i sit outside here breaking down crying again feeling beyond hopeless. i actualy have lexapro my dr recently prescribed for me but im so fearful to take it due to the horrifying debilitating effects from my prior heartburn medication... so now i have this extreme fear of any new meds. i have been taking a medication for panic attacks the last few days and i go to my second therapy appt next week. everything is so confusing and hopeless and despair right now. its terrible. thankyou for the hugs and taking the time for me.