Life sucks when you keep trying to make it work

[K8myx]

Hi I have been battling stress over 30 years since school parents made my life a nightmare only thought about running away time and time again when I should have been focused on my GCSE then was forced into an arranged marriage and had major problems due to culture difference and on top of that was struggling having children which made everything worse sleepless nights had a good career and it messed that up eventually started losing friends family suicidal thoughts then when I had my first son in 2013 thought things will get better with my wife but now being 2021 I just want to run away again forever just hate my life only to fear that in 20 years time my son will hate me too. My dad died a few years ago and then my brother committed suicide both suffered depression not like I care about them, mum paid me a visit only to kick her out of the house because of the bad memories. Just fed up of life

[Reading_Rando]

Im not sure what culture your coming from but I think all cultures (including western culture) try to force people into a mold and problems arise when we don't fit into the molds other people expect us to fit into. I think that before we can help other people and meet their needs we must first help ourselves and meet our own needs. I dont think we can meet other people's needs if we first cant meet our own.

I know that's way easier said than done, because that involves saying no to people (which is always excruciating) who are also busy and depend on us, but I dont think we can make our lives ok if we are not ok. That also involves admitting our vulnerability to other people which is also very hard because they may judge us. It sounds like you have way too much on your plate, and any one would feel overwhelmed in your position. I dont know if thats of any help but I hope you find time to do something you enjoy, good luck!

[EndUser13]

I'm sorry ☹️ that sounds awful, I can't even imagine.

I am always looking for the silver lining in things, trying to make the best out of what I have... which is a struggle sometimes in itself but worthwhile IMHO

[shodan95]

Do you have any male friends? If not, I advice you to find some. Whether it be through a church, gym, or even just a local meet up group. I know it might be difficult with covid, but when you can, try to find a group of males you can hang out with from time to time. Go hiking, fishing, bowling, or anything really. The point I'm trying to make is you need a healthy outlet so you can have a safe place to create at least some social experiences that are positive.

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Life is filled with obstacles. Moments tend to feel so confusing. Thoughts can become overwhelming.

Do you do anything special for yourself ? Self help and self care is very important. Like time for you. All about you.

Friends and people come and go.

Differences can actually make a difference. Accept a person how they are. Even if they don’t accept you.

What is gcse? Why not do that part time? On the side.

Maybe running is calling your name. Maybe the run will set you free. Set you free from all the noise. Run as in jog. Maybe this will change your life. Like a meditation yet running.

Set health boundaries now that you are the adult.

Many cultures are very loyal to their family. Many that are loyal, their family don’t deserve such loyalty.

[PapaDocs]

I too am sorry for all the things you had been through. I do know some people who have been through worse and were able to recover. The common thing is they sought help from people in church. And that includes me. Nowadays, we look at churches with suspicion. There are many churches and people who are imperfect, but majority are still willing to offer help. I have been to Brighton and London and there are churches there that might offer some kind of help. Support. Helping with errands and other day to day needs. Counseling. Friendship. Just try to get in tough with one and see if they might help. I am saying this because I was in need a long time ago and strangers from a church helped me. And today, I volunteer time to help people who want to be helped. It doesn’t hurt to try, bro. It might work for you. God Bless.