hey so this is pretty much my first rant post but I would really like some advice on this topic. basically I had this friend and it was long distance and we got really really close but now we don't talk anymore (it was my fault) but I really miss him. I always feel like he didn't really love me even though he said he did (it wasn't romantic we were just really close) and then I bash myself and call myself f******* stupid. I just want a way to let go and forget the fact that he probably didn't care anyways.
also here's another poem because you guys liked the last one, and I'm just gonna type it instead of posting a picture. (it's the part 2 to the first poem)
drowning, pt. ii
the light slowly leaves as
i plunge towards the
valleys of death and
i wonder,
what will become of me when
the navy multitude
cascades down
like we imagined, but
US is no longer so
i'll go on alone and
THE TEARS
rain down but
you're not there to be my desiccation.
looking forward to talking to everyone today, thanks x
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first of all, I like the poem it is a good explanation of how you are feeling. second I would need to know more about why you guys stopped being friends to best give advice.
ahah 1) thank you and 2) they just happened to be in a group of people that I got in trouble with so now i wish i could talk to them but i can't and it wouldn't make sense either bc i don't think they'd care
That sounds tough Also, I understand and can relate. My advice would be to send a text or an email just saying you are sorry and for what (keeping it simple) and then send it to sorta test the waters. I realize that you may have already done something like that. Otherwise, you could send a gift or a letter or something to show that you are sorry because actions speak louder than words.also, as much as you miss them it sounds like they are not the best influences anyway and maybe it might be time to start letting go. Sorry, that is probably not what you wanted to hear but sometimes that's what you need to hear.
Also, I could be wrong lots of friends get in trouble together because they are supportive but that does not always mean the friends are bad people I am just looking at it from both angles.
thanks. yeah the thing is i'm not allowed to communicate with him anymore bc my parents don't want him like 'putting stuff in my head' or some shit and honestly he seemed to be a great person (it was long distance and we've never met) but who tf knows who he actually is, right? which is what bothers me bc i could have never known if he was just taking advantage of me along with the others or if they actually cared
oof well I am sorry perhaps he was maybe even tho it is annoying at times that your mon may be right and is doing here best to help save you from harm sometimes people can save us from a lot more drama than we would like to think they did.
yeah it's okay the only reason im still hanging on is bc he had a lot of mental issues and even tried to end his life which fuckin scared the shit out of me btw and he would tell me things like how much I helped him and how I'm the only thing keeping him alive etc etc and idk if it was real or all a game I guess that's my issue but being released from the burden of his problems kind of just caused more if that makes sense and I'm trying to see the light through everything here but so many things remind me of the people I used to know and whenever I think about them it just hurts ig
yes, It is very scary when a friend tells you that they are trying to end their life I still don't like my friends even joking about that because it scared me and made me sad. and maybe it was real then maybe you should explain that to your mom and say hey I want to be a support to this person and I just will talk to him to be a support, and that's it would that be ok. Maybe she won't let you and then maybe he will be ok enough from what you have done for him and he will eventually get help because of your support. Sometimes things in life happen for a reason and according to a plan. if it is his time then there will be a special place for him in heaven and he will probably be being helped and taught by angels and if not well then something or someone will happen and help him thru (maybe you maybe not) do not be guilty for his problems you did your best now find someone else to help (but do not forget about you in all this you need to take care of yourself still) I hope this helps out.
yeah ive told my mom many times that I'm worried ab him but she thinks he's taking advantage of me which honestly I don't believe but thanks for the advice, you're right, everything happens for a reason and if he's okay, great but if it's his time too I'm sure hed be watching me from heaven
Long distance is really difficult. You just don’t know who they really are or if they can be trusted. Or even if they are telling the truth because you don’t know the people around them or what they actually are doing on a daily basis. Idk those are just my thoughts because I was through the absolute worst of it.
for sure, and sometimes i feel like I still need him because he told me he needed me but who knows if he was taking advantage of me or not? and what scares me is that you might have already read in the other thread that he attempted suicide and if he wasn't lying about that part, then who knows, i could have just killed him by leaving
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