Today

[Thehighlowroller]

So here’s where I’m at, I go to work and feel like I don’t even exist. I come home and there is nothing I’m remotely interested in that I use to enjoy. I really had the realization tonight that anything at this point could push me completely over the edge. I recently seen a doctor and was prescribed medication for anxiety and Depression and I don’t even want to take it. I feel like I’m some fucked up way I don’t even want to get better because it’s too much work. I am totally broken, where do you go when you don’t even want or know how to fix yourself

[littlenam]

If your only other option is not existing, just take the medicine. See what happens. When you hot bottom there’s not much left to lose - taking a pill every day was the only thing that saved my life for a while.

I’m sorry if that sounded dismissive. I definitely understand where you’re coming from and I know the feeling of not even caring if you get better or not. But my advice is still to just try the medication. Give it a shot, you can always stop.

[FearIsALiar]

I feel you on this... I feel so messed up and I feel as if I can’t even be fixed. I hate feeling this way. I get so jealous of those who don’t have mental health illnesses. They are so lucky. I don’t wanna be like this.. I didn’t want to go back on meds but I had no choice. It’s the only thing that seems to be keeping me stable right now. You’re not alone

[Agora1 in reply to FearIsALiar]

And it's okay to take medication. It has it's place which helps us through the difficult times until we find other methods/tools to compensate. You did right xx

[FearIsALiar in reply to Agora1]

Thanks x

[Barbie72]

Baby steps or even tinier....

[Secret4706]

I am the same and it massively sucks. Was prescribed sertaline but never took it and have everyone telling me that's why I am this way.

[AnxM in reply to Secret4706]

Prescribed lexapro but haven’t picked it up. Don’t really want to take it

[Agora1 in reply to AnxM]

AnxM success may just be waiting for you on the Pharmacist's shelf xx

[AnxM in reply to Agora1]

I took meds years ago and thought things were fine. But they were never really resolved because everything has flooded back after many years — the flashbacks are really intense. So i think meds calm me down but keep me from resolving the real issues.

[AnxM in reply to AnxM]

Having said that I called my dr today to ask about a lower dose- 5mg, so that’s available for me to pick up. I am more inclined to do thst.

[Agora1 in reply to AnxM]

AnxM you are absolutely correct in that Medication is not the answer, resolving/addressing the issues are. xx Good luck with the lower dosage.

[AnxM in reply to Agora1]

Thanks, Agora1.

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I don’t have the answers, but I wish I did! All I know is that it will get better. You need to keep pushing through and those things that you loved will make you smile again!