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[Myre]

Hello, everyone. I've been exploring the schizoid personality type on the internet. There isn't a lot of material on it. I've always felt restricted by my own mind, wondering how the kids back in primary could so easily play around. It's so tedious to indulge, everyone appears to be so passionate or in the least, display even some interest in the general cause of their lives. Not me, before depression; life was dull, monotonous, easy even. I cared but only in theory, enough to elicit the reaction of having a movie plot unfold. It could be exciting but I had unconsciously registered that I could take no active part in it. Now perhaps my schizoid isn't so bad except relationships are nearly non-existent. I am never too sad about leaving friends and funny, I don't miss them when I am gone. My brother told me I word every statement like a business proposal; formal and straightforward. There's quite a lot I don't understand, like how studying to get better grades never felt like it was for my sake. I can't explain it. I've got dreams but I can't quite decide if I care about them. I've battled with apathy all my life. Growing up, people have said that I am strong hearted, have had my ups and downs but don't seem to be bothered by them. How true, I am just terribly uninterested... It's a lot. I don't get it, if you know something, do tell. Am not quite sure how or what will change if I do sort out the facts but your input will help me greatly in coming to understand myself.

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Hi Myre, hope you are doing well. I don’t know much about the schizoid personality but there is another way to analyze personalities, the four temperaments, that’s what I am familiar with. You remind me a little of my sister who is strongly the phlegmatic type. She has that capacity to view everything in an unemotional, objective way and as a result she is super level headed and placid. (Placidity is another rare and valuable trait!) Also although she easily falls in with other people’s plans and activities, it takes her quite some time to acquire interest in activities on her own. But once she gets started toward a goal... one word. Dedication.

Maybe this is another way to view your personality type and learn to identify your strengths and weaknesses. I have used the four temperaments to gauge my own personality and found it can be helpful.

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Also that feeling of viewing life like a movie unfolding but feeling unable to take an active part in it resonates with me. But don’t let it hold you back... I think it’s something that can be a useful tool (detachment) but shouldn’t rule our lives.

[Myre in reply to Hidden]

Hi Phil. Am doing fine, how have these days been fairing you? Schizoid is characterized under cluster A of personality disorders: Odd and eccentric. Enough that people under this group can be recognized by others as peculiar. Amongst the personality disorders, schizoid is labelled the cold and detached. Not even a slight menace, schizoids most significant fault and characteristic is the inability to form and sustain emotional attachment. I read up on the four temperaments. Phlegmatics are outgoing and socially oriented. Besides her other qualities you listed, your sister strikes me as a very interesting person. Thanks for suggesting it; tested myself and came up with Sanguine or extroverted thrill seeker which really aren't words one could use to describe me at the moment. Am still in the midst of discovering and structuring my personality though which was the entire point of this inquiry, I could be very wrong about the schizoid thing. I can be logical myself if not lacking commitment but it is in this light that I can tell that i am not quite done with building myself and I am going to keep working toward that. Thanks for responding, your input is always appreciated.

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Well it’s been a rough week so far. Have spent most of it isolating myself, crying, and lying on the floor feeling sorry for myself. I think I am sort of weaning myself off being emotionally dependent on my mom, which is a difficult process but I will be better for it.

Anyhow, I hope your study of personality disorders helps you, although I must say you don’t strike me as odd or eccentric. Speaking of, earlier this year I did some poking around online and read up on the autism spectrum, specifically Aspie women. At the time, post-depression, I felt there was something “wrong” with me and I was wondering if I had a form of Asperger’s. What I discovered is, whatever I have, it’s not a problem. It’s just a difference that makes me unique. I hope you find out the same thing about yourself.

So did you do one of those online tests to identify your temperament? Because they are not always the most reliable.

[Myre in reply to Hidden]

I truly am sorry I couldn't respond; in a funk of my own but that's no excuse. Really wish I could have offered some aid but I do hope you are doing better. Feel happy, lots of love. I wish I could say more but am not really feeling my best. This is as much as I can muster for now. Bye.❤️