How much longer am I suppose, to do this
How much more am I suppose, to take
How much pain do they want me to feel
How many years do they want me to endure
How many tears, am I suppose, to cry
How many more nights do I have to feel with my silent sobbing of feeling hopeless.
When will I reach my limit when is it enough
They told me no more cutting so I don't they told me no more self harming so I don't. But I still feel like dying inside, I feel so, hallow empty, and numb to the world. But I'll laugh and eat for them, I smile and act like everything is fine. I keep living for them but never myself. So how much longer do they want me to do this, how much longer am I suppose, to be unhappy for them to have their happiness. How much longer am I supposed to just dream about dying before I try it again.
So how do I stop these thoughts? How do I get them out of my head? How to stop them from reacting in my head on an endless loop? How do any of you deal with thoughts you don't want to think about? How do start living for yourself? Is it worse during the night or morning for you?