Here again

[You_Are_Loved]

I’m here again because my life keeps going downhill I recently got into a fight with someone I called my best friend which I’m not sure if she is anymore. I’ve known her for almost 8 years and we never gotten into a huge fight like this one before. She said things that hurt really bad and I can’t help but feel if she’s right about everything. I mean I haven’t told her about how bad my anxiety and depression is. She doesn’t know what I’m going through because I never told her. It’s very very hard for me to open up to people even though she’s my best friend. And I know I need to work on that. I told her that the things she said made me feel worthless and she said stop acting like the victim here and that really hurt me. Am I the victim? I really didn’t mean to hurt anyone. I’ve just been so caught up in my own emotions that I completely ignored my own friend. I also was talking to my dad about finding a job but It’s so stressful and on top of that I have to study hard for my second permit test which I failed the first time. My dad got mad because I wasn’t listening to his advice and he said that I’ve become lazy.. but he doesn’t know that I’m not being lazy because I want to be I’m really just tired and sad all the time. I want to be happy and do things but I can’t. I can’t seem to have fun anymore and a part of me doesn’t want to. I feel really low, lower than I’ve ever felt. I just want myself to be happy again but I’m scared to tell people how I feel.

[brokenlight]

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