Missed up emotions.

[Tasneem6]

I just hate my family, not all of them just males.. I don't want to have this much of anger and hate but I can't handle it. They're living their lives while me and my mom suffering with depression at home. I've been like this since my childhood, I just don't know how to be happy and I can't even if I did something I like. I can't always finish anything I start, I just don't know how...I'm so desperate ,I'm so alone and non of them cares I hate them for caring about their father and just neglecting us... I grew up to be a weak person who doesn't know how to defend his wright or how to do anything... I have exposed much to the world ... I just hate them they made lose my mind I can't think I can't feel, I'm just powerless and so desperate. I'm cracking down I can't handle all this pressure...

[SongAndSoul]

I am so sorry that you are feeling this way.

You are under a lot of pressure, so first, let’s BREATHE.

I read a post listing a lot of problems but I commend you for, one, being “aware” and two “taking responsibility.”

It sounds like you need to build a foundation from which to springboard.

It is not easy for anybody but just take action.

A little action at a time.

You might be surprised how momentum will build the more action you take..

If it doesn't, that’s OK too.

Your job is to be an adult to your inner child.

Please be gentle with yourself.

Don’t do the same thing to yourself that the others do.

You’re doing the best you can and you are growing stronger everyday.

That is what matters.

Give yourself some credit!

[Tasneem6 in reply to SongAndSoul]

Everyday I try to move on, but these feelings are just so overwhelming they increase each day... when they visit us I act normal, but after they gone I just can't stop thinking about all the times they hurt us.. I don't know what to do I want to forget about them but I can't... I can't control it anymore, I'm so tired now I couldn't stop crying and now it's 7:37 am and I couldn't sleep yet. I'm so sick of this they made me loose myself...

[SongAndSoul in reply to Tasneem6]

Oh, I do understand. ❤️

You are grieving that lost self but every day is a new day.

Don’t let them have power over you.

Cry it out and then take a step forward....any step, just take it.

[Tasneem6 in reply to SongAndSoul]

I want to , but how?! How do I do that?

[SongAndSoul in reply to Tasneem6]

Tell yourself that you are worth putting worth on yourself, that their rejection and abuse is about THEM and not you.

Remind yourself of the things that are lovable about you.

Think about YOUR accomplishments.

Basically, learn to tell them (to your self) - “it’s your fu*%#ing loss!

Also, get angry!

What kind of person treats me and my Mom this way?

F-you.

You don’t have any power over me.

You tried to destroy me but you didn’t.

You know, I left a relationship where I basically said that.

I consider myself strong to not be destroyed.

A lot of people are destroyed.

Get made - I’m not going to take it anymore.

Don’t make someone a priority who only makes you an option.

Do not beg, borrow and plead.

Living well is the best revenge.

[Myre]

Do not spite or blame, it's a temporary high, trust me I know. You are not weak, just find yourself in a bad situation as most of us on this platform have and are still attemting to put up with. Seek out the positives, do u think you are better than them, that u have done better than them, been more considerate, do u believe your life is a struggle, that you are at a disadvantage compared to them yet here you are reaching out, holding on, hoping. That in itself is an accomplishment greater than their bravado, a silent but steadily brimming strength. You have got a will in you friend, don't let anyone make you think otherwise.

[Tasneem6]

Thank you all for your great comments ... I really appreciate them all...