Need some advice!!
In therapy last week my therapist had a, “come to Jesus” talk with me, funny only because he’s Jewish! 😜😂
He basically told me he’s done placating my fragile mood and ethically needs to challenge me to address my current significant stressors, as my pattern is to avoid them until they become a crisis. He also called me out on not accepting responsibility for my own life and the need for me to take charge and make my own decisions in my life. When I told him I was taking his direction personally he said very, very firmly, “you need to get a handle on that and learn to differentiate between when someone is frustrated with your actions, or lack therefore, and them not liking you as a person or caring for you any less than they do”. All of to which I had no reply to him. I sat in silence, scared to say one word to him. Everything he said is absolutely true but I feel as if I’m a really difficult patient and he’s had it with me. I also feel like I’m now scared to talk to him and I don’t want to.
Long story short I have a phone session with him today. Knowing this, my anxiety went through the roof last night and I haven’t slept for even 5 minutes. ALL I want to do is cancel my appointment with him!! I don’t know what to do.....!! Help?!