Not having a good day

[Chelsea1969]

I have suffered from depression all my life

I know its because i can not get over being

Abused has a child .

I have no work due to covid

My wife and my son dont talk to me

God i wish i could call it a day ...

[Hidden]

Hello

I am so sorry you are struggling so much

Know you are not alone , some have the same past , some different but what I know is that the feelings from whatever has or is happening to us feels the same and that is what we have in common

Different reasons but I feel like you and have been struggling just recently but you are not alone you have all these members to talk to and step by step I know you can't see it at this moment but there is a reason why we are all here and we will get through what we are going through

Get all the support you can , talk and share how you are feeling and good for you as I know men are not as or find it harder to share their feelings so that says you do want to be here you just don't know how to move forward but with help you will

Take Care x

[Chelsea1969 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for reaching out x

[Hidden in reply to Chelsea1969]

Here if you need to talk x

[Chelsea1969 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you lulu its 7pm in london at the moment and im sitting in my garden thinking what nice people are out there .

I have so much anger in me because of what happened to me as a kid i have tried therapy ect but nothing seems to take the hurt away hopefully one day i will find peace .X

[Hidden in reply to Chelsea1969]

O you are in the big city

I am in the UK but just live in a small town

I had a rough childhood , a lot of damaged was caused which I know has impacted how I developed and the mess I am now

I sometimes feel I would like to have me back as a child and give myself one big hug to take that pain away as it can feel like even though I am now a mature ( to be polite to myself ) adult that child still is crying inside if that makes any sense

I try to let go of the anger though as all that does is hurt me and not the circumstances that caused the anger

I to try and look for the positives as now , like I have a wonderful husband , simple things like a roof over my head , food in my stomach ( even though my stomach is a mess at the moment ) 3 wonderful grown up children etc

So despite everything I think you know what I have not done to bad even though I am a wreck I have some good things in my life and I try and focus on those

I am sorry therapy did not work but sometimes people have to have several attempts at therapy before they get the full benefit , maybe if the anger is causing so much it could be an idea to try therapy again

It is a beautiful evening and nice to think you are sat out hopefully relaxing in the early evening sun

We will find peace , we will get better , never give up hope , you are worth more than what you feel and whatever caused the anger you were the child and not at fault

For this evening tell yourself I will let go x

[Chelsea1969 in reply to Hidden]

God bless x

[Warrior50 in reply to Hidden]

Well said Lulu-1! xx

[Chelsea1969]

Its amazing i reach out and you great people reach out to me from thousands a miles away WOW thankyou X

[PapaDocs]

Hi Chelsea1969,

It’s been two days, I hope that you are doing much better. Maybe reading these can help you somehow. Sometimes a little bit of extra knowledge can help ease the pain. psychologytoday.com/us/blog.... psychologytoday.com/us/blog.... Hope you continue to get better.