Calm before the storm

[Natsteveo]

Hi I suffer with terrible health anxiety and depression along with ptsd and I found out on Monday my uncle who I was very close too until 13 years ago had passed away from a short illness of lung cancer I didn’t know he was ill. We haven’t spoken for over 13 years since my mum died we were so close at one point since I found out it’s hit me like a ton of bricks more than I thought.. and I’ve also just found out my friend has terminal pancreatic cancer she is only 50!!!

Now my health anxiety has kicked in massively keep thinking I’ve got some serious illness how daft am I... although I know it’s ridiculous but with what’s happening around me has made me so on edge keep burning up with anxiety achy legs backache that feeling of doom.. every time I lose someone or losing someone it completely rattles me to my core. It’s only when this happens otherwise I’m ok I don’t understand why

Sorry to bother you all

Just feel lonely and out of sorts

Nat xx

[iLikeTiktok]

Awwww its ok im here

[texasbonnet]

Please don' apologize, this forum is for anyone who is in of encouragement and understanding. You are entitled to ask for help. I am sorry you are going through a rough phase.

[Natsteveo in reply to texasbonnet]

thanks so much both of you xx

[Iammesues]

Since losing my dad- 11 years ago- I have major health anxiety too. You are not alone. Some us get shaken to our core, and what makes us us changes overnight. I think we have to accept our personal challenges and be patient with ourselves

[Natsteveo in reply to Iammesues]

I think your so right chick we are tough on ourselves aibt we

Nat xx

[Loveskydiving]

Hi Natzsteveo, When someone passes that I know it rattles me too. I know it is because I am a very caring,loving,kind,giving,and sensitive person and that is ok today. I'm glad I am as I would not like being a cold, unkind,noncaring, and no feelings, and unlovable. I have a friend like that and they are unhappy, jealous, hurtful person and does not even know it and that is sad. It's all about them, narcissistic. My husband has COPD from smoking and has been awful to watch him trying to catch his breath, etc. I'm going through anticipatory grief for about 10 months now. I'm taking care of him and he is bedridden now with oxygen 24/7 etc. He is a saint and does not complain and for the last couple years paid off bills, sold his truck when he had to stop driving just so I would not have to take care of this as I am not good at or have not had to do this before and he's taking care of alot of things to make things easier for me when the day comes. I love him dearly and its been a very happy and wonderful life together and he is all I have for family left, I have no children, mother or father or brother living but have a couple friends that I know will be there for me no matter what. They are very reliable. Well I need to close as I am falling asleep from a busy day. Keep us posted and we will help you get through this tough time.

[Natsteveo in reply to Loveskydiving]

This brought a tear to my eye what a selfless loving husband and wife you both are to each other I’m so sorry you both are going through this must be awful your absolutely right about us being caring loving and kind I’ve had a very physical upbringing but I always want to help people who need it

Let me know how you get on

Nat xx

[Loveskydiving in reply to Natsteveo]

Nat, thank you for reaching out. I will let you know.

[juliecarlstan1010]

Sending you Love and Light

[Natsteveo in reply to juliecarlstan1010]

Thanks so much

[Loveskydiving in reply to juliecarlstan1010]

Thank you Julie.