What's the purpose of living this life?

[Amelua]

One doesn't wake up excited, one has rwally "high" highs or really "low" lows, life isn't entirely fulfilling one, one's surrounded by others who who bring one down, one ignores dreams due to fear of moving on, one feels stuck in a rat race, but doesn't know the next step, and ladt but not least: everywhere and everyone who we looked forward to, for hope, has turned away or cut off due to covid19?

[cryingforhelp]

Jmaestas.. I can definitely fill what you are saying I just got released from the hospital today . Came home to a 17yr old waiting to see me asking if I am okay all I can do is say I am fine knowing I am not . I am scared !!! knowing I was cleared but still having some issues .

My anxiety is kicking my ass.. I sent my 17yr old to his Mom house because I dont want him to see me walking back and forth praying that I find a Doctor that will help they just push you in and right out .

My son is all I have trying to rase him to be productive honest respectful and loving and to be a stand up guy . Well enough said CRYING OUT FOR HELP..

[Island2 in reply to cryingforhelp]

Hi crying for help

Good for you that you are trying to reach out help,that's the first step.It is a torture for every second you live like that I know.We can bounce back and again we can go down again that's ok .All we need to have is right tools to come over as quickly as possible or sooner .I am quite familiar with this mental stuff it runs in my family and in me too. I try lots of bibliothrapy that means reading books about mental health like self help books as well.It gives me some strength and good tools,different perspective etc.Talking to somebody that understand you helps as well .I would suggest some good books that also were recommended by my doctor and by chance I got them and appeared to be best ones.

The books: All 5 five books of Dr.Scott Peck starting withThe Road Less Travelled

Feeling Good by Dr.David Burns

Undoing Deppression by Richard O'Connor

We are stronger than we thought and you are not alone