My inner self

[Teatime08]

Hello.

I've battled my demons for so long, they have become my friends, my companions. The voices whisper things sometimes good sometimes bad. But without fail that darkness is there to pull me close when I need it.

There is... another me... she is vastly different than the face I put on for polite society. She is cruel, unafraid, confident, strong, and without mercy. And I have to hide her.

I have long ago accepted this, me and my inner me. The broken and the strong. The one who smiles, and the one who.. well... also smiles but it is not welcoming. I am not normal. I hate it when people try to conform me. Tell me I'm wrong because I dont want to be like anyone else. But there is no freedom here, I am not free to be who I am, who I was meant to be or what I might become. And maybe that is a good thing.

[Althaea]

Hi TeaTime 👋

I appreciate your post so much. I honor and accept both and all sides of you. Conformity is stifling and drives dis-ease. I hope for a day where people no longer fear showing all their selves and personal demons are shared as collective demons. I think you’re right to want to be your self and allow the darkness to be seen, for I believe that it is the suppression of our darkness that drives misdeeds towards ourselves and other beings. We no longer honor the spirits that walk with us or hold ceremony for ourselves or others. I am glad to see someone accepting and holding space for the darkness too.

[PT81]

I think people have many faces depending on circumstances. It can be frustrating and painful.

You have a gift for words. I hope you find peace.

[Hidden]

No one will ever know who I am. Thankfully.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Hi, I'm autistic.I feel the same way lots of times. People sometimes think I'm mean when I'm trying to stay out of trouble.