Low self esteem

[DepressedMom2]

Anyone else really struggling with low self esteem right now? Since this virus took over, we had to quarantine, I gained almost 30lbs. I felt disgusted with myself even before the weight and now even more. I’m trying fasting, but I think it’s taking a toll on my mental health. I’ve always struggled actually, I don’t have insurance to see anyone. In the past I’ve seen psychologist, but I’ve never been able to attend for more than a couple months so I never actually get anything resolved. My boyfriend, or husband but we ain’t legally married but been together for almost 7 years, he don’t understand me, he jokes about his mothers mental health, why wouldn’t he joke about mine behind my back. We got kids together I feel it’s not much of a choice to walk away, I love him tho I feel neglected at times. I’m sure he does to because at times my messed up head gets the best of me. I’m depressed or to much into my thoughts I picked arguments probably over nothing but I have insecurities and no confidence. Which is my biggest struggle right now is loving myself, so I’m doubting everyone around me. I don’t trust anyone honestly.

[reaThua9]

Hi, I'm really sorry you're struggling right now with all this. It's so hard to get down on ourselves--I do it too. Weight gain, relationship stress, getting caught in our thoughts...I'm right there with you, and it all feels worse right now too. I don't know what your spiritual beliefs are, but anytime I'm struggling with self esteem, I find peace and identity in my relationship with God.

Also, just because professional counseling isn't an option, doesn't mean there aren't great mental health resources online. This article is a great place to start: bit.ly/2Vzu2y9

It talks about caring for yourself and your mental health during Covid-19. They also offer a free counseling consultation, there's a phone number to call. Maybe try reaching out to some other available resources like this?

Again, I'm so sorry to hear you're hurting. Hope this helps a little, praying for you