I often find myself irritated when I think about the people who are currently in my life , and those who are no longer , sure it is crucial to experience bad company and learn from them and then later appreciate the good , but i am sick of having my time wasted .
For once it would be nice to feel as though there is some form of consistency with people other than my family, i get tired of regaining trust , trust in people I barely have to begin with. I hate being vulnerable, for the same people to somehow disappear or to show themselves only at their own convenience, I’d rather be alone and distant
It’s annoying to form bonds with people simply for them to slowly fade away in your life , im sick of wasting my time
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Pizzaparty
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This is usually a religious cliche, but it works here...The world is full of sinners.
While it's not our place to judge, it's useful to remember that there's a ton of imperfection out there. I think it's pretty common for our collective imperfections to line up such that we don't build trust/relationships; but no less frustrating as you say.
The trick, as I think you know, is to control what we can control and let the trust come (or not).
God speed Pizzaparty.
I suppose what helped me is the fact that people come and go, and not everyone will want to stay by your side through thick and thin. Those people are extremely hard to find, and no one can predict what'll happen in the future. This is somewhat counterintuitive, but it allows me to focus more on the effort of making more friends than the letdown of not having any. Even now, I only have one to two people outside of my family who knows about my mental health (not entirely either). It will continue to take effort and lots of hard work, but when you find those who will work just as hard as you (which you will, eventually, if you keep trying) hold onto them and don't let go. It's a risk we all have to take to form deeper connections. I'm not the best at it either, but what matters is that we're trying to improve.
But critical to separate from people who don’t contribute to your well being. I separated myself from friends from over 20 years when I was not treated well. Best decision ever! We must rely on ourselves for protection from meanness
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