GAD/Panic Disorder/MDD

[Anxy_911]

Hi, this is my first time ever joining a site like this to try and get some help, advice, on how to cope with my condition. Since 2008, I was diagnosed with GAD, Panic Disorder, and Major Depressive Disorder. At the beginning I have tried everything my therapist gave me to try in minize me, and it would work for a lil, but then it's stop working. I gave up getting treatment in 2014, cause I loss the hope in anyone being able to help because the therapies, meds, would not work and tried to cope as I, could but with no success. Again, I am trying to get therapy cuz my GAD/Panic Disorders are horrible. I feel worse than ever and I feel I have no strength in controlling these feelings. A second feels like hours, feeling out of breath, nervous, scared, sad, guilty, and worried, for no reason, and it just seems it doesn't want to go away. I don't know what to do, I am trying to get help but I am scared that they would not know how to help me again, and even scared if they give me meds the time frame therapist says it can start to take effect in which it can be from 6 to 8 weeks, and if so, so that scares me. Scares me cuz I don't want to keep on living with this awful disorder for longer. It's just horrible. I can't sleep, I can't think, I get confused, cuz I am in a constant fear of dealing and dealing with this for days, months, and years, and i don't want too, I just want it to stop cuz it's horrible to feel this way everyday. It has affected my life, my work, my family, myself, my home, idk. Can anyone tell me if they have experienced such and how have they coped with it. Either with therapy, by yourself, etc. Also, I am resistant to these meds, and I am so worried that it would take forever, until they find they right combination of med therapies, therapist, cuz it feels forever I am going to keep on living like this and I don't want too. I feel like I'm gonna be doomed if these therapists are not successful in helping me with these conditions. Every night it's a struggle, and the worst, the silence in my room sounds like a scream of helplessness, my mind starts to run, and run, I have no one to talk too and I don't know what to do. I get so nervous that I end up getting stuck/ and froze sitting on my chair. I am so tired of this. Anyone? Please

[Pieces99]

You will not be doomed and there is always hope and a solution. Your condition is difficult and it's hard to find a solution for everyone cuz every person is unique and responds differently. I felt helpless too but instead of taking medications I tried opening up to my parents. Sure they would not understand but they hold your hand and give a feeling that they are here for you. Have you tried self care like yoga, exercise, meditation, finding a hobby, keeping your self occupied? Please try and don't let the depression win because there is so much more in you. I know it. I feel it. Keep trying and we are here always for you.