So Depressed...

[Renaxo]

It’s like at night is when my depression hits the hardest.... I’ve been trying to go to sleep for the longest but my thoughts are getting to me.. I just can’t help but to keep wondering why he just disappeared on me and stopped writing me. It’s difficult when someone is incarcerated and you can’t call them, text them, or see them how you used to and I wish that I could because I just wanna know why.. how do you go from talking to someone, writing someone, and the last conversation we had was a good conversation, and then you just stop writing out of nowhere and stop responding? And on top of that, a little birdie told me that he got into a fight and was stabbed and knowing that and not hearing from him just makes me worry more.. I mean he’s alive and he’s doing better now I’m sure but it’s been 2 months now since I’ve last spoke to him and a month since I wrote him and didn’t get a letter back.. sometimes I hate myself and hate my heart. I wish it was easy for me to let go of people how it’s so easy for them to let go of me...