Why me

[Thelonewolf22]

Why am I always the easy target? Why do I always choose th wrong people. Why do I always let my anger get the best of me. I’m a monster and I wanna change so bad but I don’t know how. Therapy and psychiatry doesn’t help me but I don’t know at this point what will

[NikkiNoNames]

Take a deep breath.. breathe.. it's ok. I'm nikki and if it's ok I'd like to know where you're from ? How was life growing up there and how's your relationship with your parents ?

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to NikkiNoNames]

I don’t feel comfortable disclosing my location but I was raised super innocently and my relationship with my parents is complicated. A lot of ups and downs with my mom but I made her have panic attacks because of my mental health state. My dad doesn’t understand emotions and we have a good surface level relationship. I have so much built up anger against everything because I have been treated like shit my entire life. I know there’s a truly evil side of me and I can’t live with it. It’s always gonna be there and I can’t do anything about it because the world we live in doesn’t allow us to be able let us express ourselves freely and therapy and psychiatry is fake

[NikkiNoNames in reply to Thelonewolf22]

What is it that you want to express ? What do you like to do or would like to do ? How old are you ?

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to NikkiNoNames]

That I’m hurt. I can’t cry because it was traumatized out of me. At this point I just want to be happy and have a family but that’s impossible because I’m too evil. I’m 21 but old enough to know what I want