Why tell me these things

[Thelonewolf22]

Everyone tells me things are going to get better but in fact things get worse. I trust no one anymore and I don’t know where to go. I think life is truly pointless. I don’t enjoy doing anything for myself. I can barely sleep. And I basically have no one else in this world

[Teatime08]

Hi. I hate it when people tell me that too. I try to be better. I've learned how to make people believe I'm better. I guess im a good liar. the only thing I have is my daughter. I am married, but he seems to have forgotten that I need support, and i believe he is cheating. My heart hurts.

My heart hurts for you. It's ok to crawl inside yourself. Just dont stay there too long

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to Teatime08]

At least you have a husband and a kid. I’m all alone

[Teatime08 in reply to Thelonewolf22]

I wish I was alone. I'm pretty sure my husband is cheating on me, but all I've got is my gut and no evidence. Accept he hasn't been intimate with me for weeks. Hasn't expressed any love for me. But he did tell me he doesn't like coming home to me... yay... at least if he wasn't there I wouldn't be walking and eggshells waiting for the other shoe to drop. I can never see a positive outlook. Like it's always bad.... because I want to prepare for the bad ya know?

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to Teatime08]

I get that but I haven’t been in a relationship over 3 months I’d rather have a long toxic relationship just to be with someone to try to work things out than being all alone trying to figure this shit out alone

[Teatime08 in reply to Thelonewolf22]

I've been with my husband for 11 years. He is extremely toxic. But I stay because I don't believe I'm good enough to love. And I deserve the negative way he treats me

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to Teatime08]

One you definitely do, two I’m probably no better than your toxic husband because I let my anger get in my way all the time and that’s my downfall and makes me a terrible person

[Teatime08 in reply to Thelonewolf22]

I have terrible self esteem. And no confidence. Try my best to manage my depression and anxiety. I need a lot of reassurance and I never get it. Which causes those negative thoughts. I'm sure your not as bad as you think.

Why did you have such anger problems?

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to Teatime08]

Everyone leaves me and it hurts so bad. I just want to feel wanted by someone. I don’t want to die alone and I don’t want to become abusive. I just want to be loved and forgiven and to truly be able to work things out

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to Teatime08]

I’ve been bullied my whole life and I feel weak and powerless

[userbee in reply to Teatime08]

I am sorry you are suffering. Sounds like it might be helpful to have a good honest talk with him. He needs to know how you feel. Holding things in is never good for me.

[Teatime08 in reply to userbee]

Been there done that lol. Just waiting for him to file for divorce. And then I'll be free. And he will be free and I will never, ever do this shit to myself again. Love is the absolute worst kind of pain. I'm done with it. I'm done with my husband. I just want to sell this damn house and get on with my life by myself. With no one to answer to. No one to care about. I'm just done

[moonprincess]

Hey there, I'm sorry to hear the way that you feel. I know it can be so annoying when people say things will get better and you see no change. But I think the fact that you joined this support group to be heard is a good step forward. If you keep taking these steps forward I am sure you will find a point to life. Have you tried talking to a therapist about this?

[Thelonewolf22 in reply to moonprincess]

Yes but therapy has been such a bad experience for me every single time

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If I'm crossing a boundary you don't want me to by asking this, by all means please tell me. But I'm curious about your anger. Do you get angry for no reason, or are there situations that trigger your anger. Cause I'm one to get angry too, and sometimes it's because I allow my thoughts to get the best of me, but sometimes it's for legit reasons. Now how I handle my anger is probably not the best. And as far as you being bullied, I watched my brother go through that and I can't stand that mess, and I'm so sorry you had to go through that. It changed him as a child and he was very violent at one point because of it. That's horrible. People can be huge a holes.