Freakin struggled today

[Strongest123]

Hello everyone on here. Hope everyone’s having a good day. I myself struggled really hard to stay positive. I’ve been diagnosed with OCD and severe depression for quite sometime. Today was freakin tough. Don’t know what’s triggered this rollercoaster ride the last few weeks, but it’s been a battle. It’s almost like my mind keeps thinking of impending doom, and like something terrible I’d going to happen, even though I know this is my anxiety playing tricks on me.

I picked up my daughter today. She’s such a happy baby my little girl. I took her to the park, both on our bikes. She had a nice time, playing with some of her friends that were there. I adore her. She made me Father’s Day presents and they were beautiful. They mean so much to me.

I just really wish I could’ve enjoyed the moment and not feel despair. SAMSON.

[Agora1]

Hi Strongest123, in dark times like this, make sure you give yourself credit in pushing

forward. As difficult as that had to be, you did good in taking your little girl to the park

on your bikes. Even for moments at a time, It gave you some exercise, some diversion

of your negative thoughts as well as making your little one very happy

Nothing like getting a hand made gift from the heart for Father's Day.

Whatever caused the rollercoaster ride more recently, try focusing in what you have

in the present moment. These are the memories you should remember.

Happy Father's Day Samson! Agora1 xx

[Hidden]

That’s the game I play with myself. OCD obtrusive thoughts that are hard to live with and depression that leaves me hollow. And after many years I am angry that my memories are limited because I spend so much time thinking of myself. Ugly diseases. I simply try to do the next right thing and work through the days. Pretty shitty sometimes...

[Strongest123 in reply to Hidden]

I hear you. It’s not easy. I’m just trying to pinpoint what triggered my spike in the last few days. SAMSON