I often find myself getting jealous every time my friends make new friends , my best friend has bonded with someone else therefore we don’t talk as much , and although the bond is now an intimate relationship and for that I shouldn’t be jealous i should be happy that my friend has found new love but i always feel as though im losing to the new friends , their unfamiliar and So i feel like the old used car
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I wonder if there's something deeper than just jealousy about your friends getting close to other friends. Maybe it's a fear of rejection? Maybe it's a feeling that friends finding new friends entails their disapproval of you? Maybe it's even related to past trauma, perhaps? I would try to dig a little deeper and see what those feelings of jealousy are really about. It's difficult to deal with difficult emotions until we learn what the root of those feelings are.
It could possibly be past trauma and I’ll admit that im an insecure person , my friends friends usually always seem to have their lives together , they’ve got their looks and intelligence and most of all confidence, im a shy and quiet person and in the past I’ve had some pretty bad friends who made me feel worse about myself at a young age
As for the current friends yes i often feel as though ill be rejected in the sense of no longer being needed or wanted
It sounds like you are dealing with some negative feelings about yourself. To get a hold on the jealous feelings, it will probably be good to first reassess your perception of yourself. Are you really not as good-looking and intelligent as you perceive yourself to be? Is being quiet or shy necessarily a bad thing? Is your fear of rejection warranted? I wonder if counseling or something similar like spiritual direction might help you come to your own conclusions about those questions...
You’re right , at the beginning of quarantine i sought spiritual healing for myself and I was actually in a much better head space until suddenly I wasn’t,
Im not unattractive nor dumb but i believe things other people tell me about myself , i hardly try to replace those words with positive thoughts of my own
I do indeed though desperately need counseling , just hard to afford at the moment