I’ve always felt like I am ugly. I’ve told a very few people, but they say the same love-yourself bullshit and that I am pretty (I feel like they are just trying to be nice). Recently, looking at the mirror, I’ve discovered one of my cheeks is bigger than the other one, so I’ve been trying to convince myself that it’s just my imagination just to not get obsessed with that (I suffer from Asperger, so I get obsessed with stuff very easily).
But now, each time I take a selfie or I look at the mirror, I see my face deformed, I see the same imperfection again and again!! I don’t know what to do!! :c I’ve been repeating the appearance-doesn’t-matter bullshit to myself, but it doesn’t seem to work. Also, I’ve been thinking going to a therapist, but the only thought makes me feel so uncomfortable... I am trapped right now, I don’t have anyone to turn to. I feel like I’m gonna explode :c