Confused

[Pizzaparty]

I’ve been having anxiety and panic attacks for the past few weeks because I confessed that i had a crush on my best friend, I never thought i ln a million years that I’d admit it nor did i want to, but i noticed an unhealthy pattern of jealousy I have when she gets close to other people , I thought he truth would set me free but i feel a ton worse... idek how to come to terms with my sexuality right now because I don’t know what feelings are real or if I’m just confused simply because I don’t explore my sexuality enough, nevertheless

Although my friend said she was okay with how i felt and that it didn’t bother her my brain won’t allow me to relax because in my mind I’ve ruined the relationship for myself she’s still like a sister to me , but i feel like a weirdo and a nuisance i don’t want my overthinking to kill the friendship I honestly wish I wouldn’t have said anything in the first place